My dear son Can.
My life has been without you for six years. I miss you. I am looking for you. But everywhere I see only this dark emptiness. I feel this heavy burden, my pain and longing. I can't find any relief.
How much I miss our time together. I seek comfort in my memories and I could tell you for hours how you filled my life with beauty.
Now I am without you.
And I feel a deep pain that I can no longer live my love with you. And you, I suppose you are now in a beautiful place called the Kingdom of Heaven. There, where there is no persecution, where children's lives are not disregarded and things are just and conscientious. At least I hope so. I want to believe in that. That is what I am striving for. Because with your cruel death, I have lost all my certainties with you.
If only we didn't teach people in this world to classify, evaluate, and subdivide, but instead to empathize. Maybe then we wouldn't have to live through all that is the reality now.
And that reality is hell for us. We have been fighting for justice, struggling and agonizing, crying out, against all odds for these six years, while those involved in this assassination continue to go about their business out there, undisturbed and unhindered. Further active in their Nazi network. The accomplice Philip Körber, who made it possible for the assassin to commit the crime in the first place because he illegally sold him weapons and ammunition, has been out of custody a year early and it has not been deemed necessary to inform us about this.
It is said that there was no progress in the investigation of this case. It was obvious that they wanted to close the file as quickly as possible, even though there were many leads from witness statements from the Nazi milieu that could have been followed up. For them the case is closed, but not for me. Because we continue to be threatened here as immigrants, we continue to be exposed to deadly racism. Yes, that makes me nervous. I'm deeply troubled by that.
We are told that our feelings are shared, that we can use the opportunities of pseudo-democracy, but also that we have to obey and submit. Given the situation, this basically means you have to live with the fact that people like you want to kill you - and if it happens, accept your fate.
I am also supposed to obey and submit when it comes to preparing the annual memorial service. As a relative, I have no say in who may speak and who may not. Every year we are confronted with a wall with which the city of Munich shields itself from us. Even my legal assistance was denied to me by the city.
I have learned in these six years that there is no justice and no further order. That hurts me. People who commit crimes against humanity are protected. Such a great injustice hurts me deeply. This system carries people on its hands who have committed crimes against humanity. It is a dangerous world where under the name of human, there is an inner hypocritical community that thinks nothing of being good people, doing good for others and valuing them. This community is not afraid of doing evil and letting others do evil.
And in this world, there are people who remain silent in the face of all this, and they believe they are right the more they remain silent. The injustice in this country is shown by the fact that we ourselves have to fight for justice. And if we don't fight for it, and leave it in the hands of the police and politicians, I fear that there will always be immeasurable suffering. I no longer have any confidence in the judiciary and state power.
German justice has failed in the face of right-wing terrorist attacks. The law was trampled underfoot and then completely shelved. I prefer to trust people who do not close their eyes and show solidarity through their conscience and sense of fairness. Who stand up for a just and humane coexistence in society and will not accept injustice and will not remain silent. I have experienced so much genuine sympathy from fellow human beings and felt the power of deep encounters that this makes me hope and believe again.
And I would like to advise young people in particular that this world belongs to you. Do not give your future, your dreams, your hope into these dirty hands.
As long as I see everyone here, I will not give up my hope.
My dear son Can. You were killed by bullets and we will not stop until all those who participated in this are held accountable. We will not be silent and we will not let them forget you. As long as people are murdered, we will not stop pointing out that there are atrocities there.
But you, rest in peace.
We are an initiative of relatives, survivors and supporters who want to recall and remember the attack on July 22, 2016 at the Olympia-Einkaufszentrum (OEZ) in Munich. The names of the nine victims must not be forgotten. It must not be further concealed that the act was right-wing terror, anti-Muslim racism and antiziganism.
We want to and will fight for this together.
We want to help ensure that the victims are not only remembered on the anniversary, but that they and their stories are part of the public consciousness. We want the demands of the relatives for an appropriate commemoration and for a space for exchange and reappraisal to become reality. We want to stand together against racism and right-wing terror. We want Munich to take this attack seriously and to draw consequences. We want this attack to be recognized and named as right-wing terror nationwide.
We want to counter the contempt for humanity of right-wing terror and racism with a practice of solidarity.
OEZ 22.07.2016 Munich remember!